It really gets me!

Seminggu ni timeline FB banyak naik update kawan-kawan baru dapat baby.
Congratulations laaa kepada mereka.
I really wanna get this thing off my head, thats why I'm trying to write this out.

It really gets me.
Everytime new update on that came up on the FB.
Lepas seorang. seorang.
Like...semalam je...lebih dari 3 update.
Ada yang baru keluar.
Ada yang baru bagi nama.
Ada yang baru update scan.
Ada yang update scan, kembar lagi.

it really gets me. big time.
Though my hope this month quite high, since after Clomid and Duphaston, my last cycle day become 28..i wonder what will happen this month. 2nd round of Clomid and Duphaston.

Dah tak tahu nak heart to heart dengan suami macam mana.
Dia dah selalu dengar.
Diri sendiri pun dah tak sampai hati nak dia terus dengar.
Dia pun manusia jugak
Walaupun dia sangat memahami.
But the thing is, kalau D luah perasaan, dia lebih suka diam, x pujuk sangat.
Sebab pada dia, masa tu D tengah down, kecewa, marah.
So pada dia, kalau dia jawab, respon masa orang tengah marah...akan lagi buruk.

Which is true.
But not ALL THE TIME
I need his comfort too. Wise word. Calming me down.

Last time one of his best friend baru dapat baby. Pagi2 bukak FB...tu la padahnya pagi2 bukak FB.
After i got dress, turun bawah. Terus nangis sorang2.

And today. My mood being thrown all the way to the drain.
Last day of school. Good bye kids. You too really gets me.