KK 1st Appointment

So the consultation went well.

Doc just took my history of menses from the past 3 cycles I've had, which it was turn out every 2 months..

Then doc buat scan sekejap (which masa ni macam berangan sangat2 scan baby..haha), and she said that my uterus wall quite thick, macam akan period soon. Tapi baru je last 2 weeks ada period walaupun sikit yg amat....

Frankly said cannot remember much what she said, so she just prescribed me Provera 5mg untuk induce period tu.

Cuma dia kata, terpulang la nak makan bila, since period baru lagi, tak sampai 2 month (kalau ikut history).

Lepas makan 5 hari berturut, bila period keluar then i need to roger her.

The thing is..bila nak makan? haha. Lagi pun puasa dah nak dekat. And sekarang tengah nak menghabiskan sisa-sisa puasa ganti berbaki.

Maybe dah habis ganti baru makan, tak kisah la dah dekat puasa.. asalkan InsyaAllah dapat aturkan period dengan baik....dan dipermudahkan urusan seterusnya...

Bak kata suami, period pun rezeki juga~

I wonder how other TTC-ian keep track your medical treatment record?

Saya ambil inspirasi mak, masa dia undergo cancer treatment back in 2011, dia ada note book besar A4 tu, segala note doc: ubat prescribed, diagnosis, progress, result test, result ubat..everything la..doc akan jot down dalam buku tu. Any papers yang tunjuk perkembangan mak which i cannot read pun all the medical terms, mak dan doc akan tampal dalam buku tu....mak pun akan tulis daily routine especially ubat, heart rate and any simptoms yang dia dapat in between check ups...so doc boleh tengok previous notes progress or anything from there. In one book (rasa dah 2 buku jugak kot)

Just wanna do the same since I expect this treatment will take several appointments and test and everything. Ubat2 apa yang dapat, rekod kan termasuk bila consume and any progress later on Tampal kad case sheet tu accordingly ikut urutan appointment so tak bersepah and stay in sequence,,.
Memudahkan doc untuk membantu kita I think.....:)

Maybe others also do the same, kalau tak macam mana uolls boleh track all the things uolls wrote in your blogs rite..? hihi.

15 May 2016

Bismillah

Finally I put myself together and gain my guts to see a Doctor.
Memang plan nak pergi semalam (15/5/2016) since Sabtu my kindy buat sukan, so Ahad cuti peristiwa..

So dah plan lamaaaa nak pergi on this date, since kindy ikut cuti Jumaat-Sabtu macam gomen, jadi memang susah nak cari masa pergi KK
Bukan taknak amik cuti, tapi cuti dah tinggal sikit sebab Mac hari tu dah banyak pakai pegi vacation. Haha.

And I do expect that following this treatment memang banyak akan amik cuti..lama2 cuti habis, kena unpaid leave. Gaji dah la ciput amat. Cikgu tadika...what do u expect kan. Bila nanti kena unpaid leave, bape banyak je la gaji tinggal.

*nak baby ke tak ni, cuti pun berkira*

Bukan berkira, tapi selagi boleh plan cuti baik2, I need to plan la. Isi perut pun mau kena jaga maaa~

Well anyway, dah set cantik dengan hubs, and dah call pun doc ni. By the way memang nak jumpa doc ni sebab macam selesa dengan dia, kenal dia dah lama luar dari suasana kedoktoran and in fact, i called her Makcik. She also call herself makcik la with me.

Suddenly that night rupanya ada match JDTvs PKNS. dan dah ada ura-ura si sultan ni nak bagi cuti peristiwa kat Johor kalau JDT menang.

Aduyai, kalau tak sebab dah plan ni, i memang sokong JDT habis-habisan *kohkohkoh* *tiputipu*
Tapi kalau tak kerana kindy pun cuti peristiwa sukan, i bet kalau JDT menang pun, boss tak bagi cuti. Entah pape. Cikgu2 lain ada bagitau yang tahun lepas pun, bila Sultan bagi cuti peristiwa kat Johor bila JDT menang, boss kindy tak bagi cuti sebab *alasan* cuti kindy ikut HQ kat KL. *entah ape2. habis tu apesal cuti KL lain tak ikut cuti?* So saya cuma menyelami perasaan cikgu2 ni sebab last year still kerja kat tempat lama, and boss lama bagi cuti. *kihkihkih*

So Alhamdulillah la kat cikgu2 ni sebab cuti sukan, kalau tak memang kerja la semalam

Aaaanyway, divert too much....I was looking forward for yesterday, since kindy akan cuti, and KK for sure bukak. So jimat la cuti. Sekali bila malam tu baca FB Johor dapat cuti, ya Rabbi...nangis2 di buatnya. *apesal nangis entah*
Tapi lebih kepada geram, sebab kita dah plan kan. *Allah lah pengatur terbaik*
Ye baikkk
But i slept with frustration. Sebab macam blank. Semangat nak mula treatment dah ada, sekali ada aral pulak. I jadi down sangat, sebab point utama nak start ni nak dapat referral letter KK untuk jumpa specialist kat HSA. So dah set dengan doc ni nak amik blood test and get referral letter.

Oh I already mentioned to doc that my menses are irregular, so it is very hard for me to determine my CD1. Memang takkan sama lah dengan prediction dalam apps, ada apps cuma untuk rekodkan apa2 yang perlu je.

Sometime i bleed tak kira masa, let say this week 2 hari..then bersih. Kemudia next week ada bleed lagi 2 hari..kemudia bersih. Then next week ada spotting sampai 5-7 hari macam period menses biasa. So which one is my CD1? macam mana nak pergi amik blood test on CD2 macam tu kan?

Dan asalnya plan nak ke LPPKN. Hubs yang suggest sebab kalau pergi KK ni, almaklumlah tempoh menunggunya azab. Ke LPPKN ni cuma kena sacrifice money la. So a week before yesterda, I bleed dengan banyak a day after intercourse, so ingat nak ke LPPKN the next morning. I called them and explain my irregular menses, but the refuse for me to come because they said their service only for infertility treatment, but for irregular menses, diorang tak treat.
*sobs but selamat duit for now*

So back to KK story, malam tu dapat tahu gomen dapat cuti, i was sooo frust. But the next morning decide dengan hubs, kita lalu je kat depan KK tu..kot-kot laaaaaaa diorang exclude themselves *berangan but hoping* lagi pun dekat dataran JB ada karnival apa entah, tapi ada medical checkup jugak, Doc tu ada bagi sebaran ada booth medical kalau nak buat blood test for all screening. So kalau KK tutup, ingat nak jalan kat dataran je.

Lagi pun kalau Doc takde kat KK, manalah tahu dia bertugas pulak kat booth tu. Manalaaah tahu.

Tapi Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah. Baru keluar kereta, dan baru bukak data hp, mesej2 wassap terus masuk. Rupanya Doc tu ada wassap, cakap dia ada di KK, cuma tak boleh buat blood test tapi boleh jumpa for consultant session.

I was like...terus semangat! Tak pe lah tak boleh amik darah, adalah reason tu. Tapi jumpa Doc pun dah sangat bagus. So I went there alone, hubs kerja *small private co, sukati dia nak follow cuti ke tak*. Kami breakfast dulu, sebab dah tak perlu blood test, so tak continue la puasa.

Rupanya KK tu bukak half day 8-11am. Kena la juga bukak sebab dah bagi appoinment date kan...tapi tak ramai pun. Pendaftaran until 10.30am je. Sempat jeling jam tangan, pukul 10 masa tengah beratur ambil nombor. Alhamdulillah, sempat. Orang kat kaunter bayar pun tak ramai, rasa smooth je.
Rezeki Alhamdulillah. Tunggu tak sampai sejam pun macam selalu.

Anyway..ni baru pasal decision nak pergi KK je. Consultationnya belum cerita lagi. *kahkahkah*

Next post lah.

Penat dah type.

Jom kita kuat sama-sama

Decided to go to LPPKN to eventually start....somewhere..
Mula nak pergi klinik kerajaan je, sebab 1st time start rasa terkejut2 nanti kena bayar gedebuk sekali.
Tapi suami kata klinik kerajaan ni ramai, buang masa tunggu lama...

Tapi bila call LPPKN, dia kata kena datang on 1st day period.
In which i explained my menses are irregular and haywire..
Cannot even recognize when is the 1st day..

Tapi dia kata kalau macam tu kena jumpa gynea kat klinik/hospital dulu
Untuk treatment regularkan dulu menses.
Baru senang proceed kat LPPKN

Sebab LPPKN cuma rawatan kesuburan.
Bukan masalah menses.

*sigh*

So we decided tak pergi mana2 pun hari ni.
Sebab nak ke klinik kerajaan, dah pukul 8 lebih
Konfem2 dapat jumpa doc pun dekat pukul 10 nanti.

Ahad ni ofis cuti peristiwa.
Boleh laaa....

Bak kata suami

"Jom kita kuat sama-sama"

Thanks hubs~

Ding dong~

Emosi macam roller coaster lately

Banyak pulak post2 kat FB yang tayang dah perggy....dah bersalin...

well of course it is their rights to post anything....everything...

it is their **** wall~

Kita cakap2 kang...orang kata busuk hati la, dengki la...haha..typical malay~

That is why I am mad..

I am mad at myself....

because allowing myself to read those things...

Of course la bukan stalking......*mostly*

They just happened to be there....while scrolling...

I am not happy for them...??

I do not know.

Jeles....?

I am. I'm not going to deny it.

Emm..

Just read one blog telling her journey in TTC

Hardship. that's all a can summarize

Sampai rasa nak vomit membayangkan.

Wondering do I also need to undergo such process.

While in the mean time hadap soalan2 orang yang tak pernah nak faham.

Semoga Miss Orked terus tabah. Doakan ketabahan saya juga~