We are the Dreamers

Bismillah

me and my hubs
We have been married for two years Alhamdulillah.

Last November
the 30th to be exact

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah. I never dream to be blessed with such a great hubs.
Indeed he is the 3rd gift from heaven for me
After my Mak and Ayah of course, they are my first love ^_^

This 2016, we are step into our 3rd year of marriage, Alhamdulillah.
But we are still only just a two of us.
So we decided that in 2016 we must do something.
Start somewhere.

Yeah I know it's quite late to take a start.
But I hope it is not way too late.

our 1st year, in 2014we are in a long distance marriage.
Only see each other on weekends.
So the time constrain really hard for us to try naturally.
And sometimes, I was on my period on that weekend. Bummer.......

Then we reached into 2015, we start to live together, Alhamdulillah
But a bit stress for me, because I never never never been so far away from my parents.
Been missing them a lot, together with my niece and nephews that lives together with their granddad and grandmom..(my big sis and hubs are staying with them).

Manja la kan. Bukan anak bongsu pun. Tapi dalam ramai adik beradik, I'm the only one who did not went to SBP since form 1. Only enrolled to boarding school in form 4..
Then I further study in diploma and degree in Gombak, only 15 minutes drive from home.
I never been out from KL/Selangor actually..

Until 2015. I head South.

So 2015 went.....well..not so well la I could say.
We haven't start any treatment because we thought we want to try naturally, since we kindda treat 2015 as our first year marriage because we just start living together. Haha.
So called newlyweds :p

But weeks turn into months.
And now it has been a year.
Not a thing.
Well my period was not so regular, but it came every month..cuma kejap banyak, kejap sedikit..so i really cannot determine the right time.

It was my fault jugak lah, tak rajin rekod body temp every morning. Tak rajin ambil vitamin. I did consume Shaklee GLA and few others...tapi tu lah...istiqomah ke laut~

Dreamers apa kalau ke laut istiqomah nya kan...

Oh Allah~

So this year we decided to start somewhere. Maybe we need to abandon natural way. Maybe we need to start to seek for any treatment possible. Brace myself for any possible.

I did my pap smear in June 2015. The result was ok, just have some infections down there but nothing dangerous...and nothing further. We stuck there. We did not step up for further investigation or treatment.

I do not call myself as infertile. Hate that. Because I do not know yet what did we do wrong, or what are the problems. Either me or hubs.

hmmm....where to start ya..~